I am 29 years old, almost 30. This is not a blog about someone who has struggled since day one with weight. In fact, this is the opposite. I use to be the skinny one. The one that everyone wanted to be like. I was 100 pounds soaking wet. I could eat anything and everything! Granted you couldn't always really tell how skinny I was cause I wore baggy clothes. I never liked clothes that showed a little curve. It wasn't until I was dating a guy at 18 that I started wearing clothes that showed my figure. And it was then I started gaining weight. But I was still at a healthy weight. I just didn't know it. I got married at 22 years of age and was creeping into the 130s. Still at a healthy weight. Slowly every year I gained more weight. When I got pregnant with my first child I was 157. Not a healthy weight. How did I get there? I didn't even really see that it was happening! Now, two kids later, I'm weighing between 172-175. And now, I have to deal with the reality of what's ahead if I don't change things now. My family is full of arthritic diseases, diabetes, obesity, and I am not going to be one of them! I want to lead by example for my children, my daughter especially. Because of the weight, I'm even more self conscious, my joints are hurting me more, and I have no energy. I'm 30. I should be active and full of life and I'd rather hide under a rock. I hate how I look, I hate my clothes, and I hate that I've allowed the weight to define who I am. I am a fun loving, scrapbooking, piano playing, singing, friend who is also a wife and mother. I just also happen to be all that and overweight. I need to remind myself that I am still me, I'm just heavier. I need to re-strengthen relationships in my life. I need to start taking care of me. I will chase my children around without losing my breath. I will be able to have tons of fun with them and not worry if my fat is hanging out. I will not feel embarrassed when I get in the pool with them for lessons, or stand around skinny chicks who have had 2,3,4 kids and look like they have never birthed in their life.
The purpose of this blog is to keep me accountable and to hopefully, encourage someone who is also struggling with the same thing. I will hopefully post daily about what foods I'm eating, my workout out, and how I'm doing on my goals. I will try and create a goals list so I have something to look forward to. I'm hoping to eat better, exercise, and hopefully, lose weight and get to a healthier me. And in the process, hopefully deal with the depression and re-discover who I am.
I will post a skinny pic of me and a recent pic of me. Then hopefully, a new me pic!
