Don't Beat Yourself Up

Don't beat yourself up. People make mistakes all the time. It's how we react to those mistakes that help us to succeed or fail. I tend to beat myself up when I have eaten something that I shouldn't have eaten. I remind myself all the time as I'm eating it that this is why I'm fat and if I don't change my ways, I will never feel good about myself. Which is true but I'm sure I could go about telling myself that without putting myself down in the process. Why is it so easy for me to give up my one hard addiction of pepsi *13 weeks almost 14!* but so hard for me to eat right and avoid that bad things specially during those times of the month that are hardest for me!! I'm frustrated, I'm tired of dealing with this, and tired of struggling with this on a regular basis! In our class today, we talked about what our motivation for losing weight was. The leader had us write down how we wish we could feel, how to recognize our motivational speed bumps, and what we will use to try to jumpstart our motivation. I wrote that I want to feel good, healthy, powerful and in control. Yeah I want to look good but I want to feel good more and I want to have power and be in control over my food. I dont want it to control me anymore! And I'm hoping that I can exercise more which means getting off my butt and doing it! Which I am going to talk to a friend about watching my kids twice a week so I can go to the gym no excuses! I want to snack more on fruit and less on the junk. And I want to call my mom during those really hard days! I know I can do this. I think I just need more help then I realized. I feel stupid when it comes to food. How to cook it, prepare it, what to buy, what is healthy, how to make it tasty while being healthy. All of that. I dont know how to cook sweet potatoes but I really want to try the fries. I've tried a recipe for baked zucchini chips and that failed and I tried to dry strawberries in my oven and that failed miserably! I'm tired of this being an issue and I'm so frustrated! So, I'm boldy going to do something that I have been fighting for awhile and I'm going to be held accountable by you. If you are up for and don't mind doing it, call me, text me, email me, show up on my door step. I don't care how you choose to do it, just need someone to hold me accountable to eating better and to exercising! I am actually going to try and see if some of the ladies in my church want to start walking weekly, maybe twice a week. I have to do something! I will get this weight off, I will feel better, I will be in control of my food. I will succeed and I know with God beside me, and you encouraging me, I will get over this hump and win this battle! I did gain .4 this week but I have a total loss of 6.6 pounds as of today. I'm about 2 lbs away from losing 5% of my weight so far. Also I am still doing Zumba every tuesday and loving it!! Baby steps....